Matthew P. Haubert

Verse 1
White walls and waiting rooms, fluorescent hums to thoughts of you
There's a switch somewhere I need to find, turn it off so I can go numb inside
I volunteer for any study, sign me up today
Give me something strong enough to make it go away

Chorus
Please lobotomize my brain, take away my ability to feel anything
Please prescribe me something, any pill will do, that cauterizes memories
Because every thought duplicates to two
Empty, clean it out, make me numb by design

Verse 2
They say that time's supposed to heal my heart, but my years are fading gone
To wait out all these wounds, I'd wither away before the scars would heal
So I ask the doctors to cut and scalpel what's left of me
Because anything that has a chance is worth not feeling this constant aching

Verse 3
I've tried the normal things to silence all the voices in my head
Drowned them out with static, hoping they would all dissipate
But the past keeps scratching at the inside of my skull, won't leave me be
So rewire all my circuits, cut the cords, make me nothing but a zombie

Bridge
Maybe I just couldn't hold this hurt inside
Maybe I built too many walls of lies
From every past mistake, everything that makes me break

Chorus (Extended)
Please lobotomize my brain, take away my ability to feel anything
Please prescribe me something, any pill will do, that cauterizes memories
Because every thought duplicates to two
Empty, clean it out, make me numb by design

Outro
So take it all away, lobotomize my brain
Take it all away, sedate me till I'm 98
On my deathbed where I can't remember anything
And I'll finally feel some happiness again