Dad 

Down. 
Desperate. 
Defeat.  

Why does it feel so good. 

Mom 

Alone. 
Alienated. 
Abandoned. 

Somehow it feels warm. 

Blurring eyes see no love 
Ringing ears never heard  
I love you 

Days 

Waiting. 
Wanting. 
Wishing. 

It became normal. 

People 

Faking. 
Feigning. 
Frightened. 

Anything to keep my heart beating. 
My life became a distortion. 
I beg for memories. 
One reason if Dad stayed. 
One day if Mom didn’t leave. 
One childhood memory that isn’t missing. 
Nothing between me 
and what waits 
behind my eyes. 

I beg. 

I beg. 

Today 

Drowned. 
Drunk. 
Defeated. 

Still looking for approval. 

.