This one is raw, loud, and angry. It’s a song about despair, about shouting at God, and about the question so many of us carry: why does everyone feel this sad? It’s not an easy listen, and it’s not meant to be.

Content note: this song deals with suicide and suicidal thoughts. If it hits close to home, please take care of yourself. In the US you can call or text 988 anytime.

Stream it now: Link to the demo of “Tonight”

lyrics

[Verse 1]
Tonight
I think I’ll take my life
Please tell the doctors
Not to resuscitate my mind

[Verse 2]
Tonight
I’ll walk through gates of hell
And ask God why
He poisoned my mind with this plan of mine

[Verse 3]
Tonight
In my triumph of the afterlife
Ill promise everyone I’ll find out
To why people feel so
Fucking sad all the time

[break]
Even if heaven doesn’t
Let me in
I’ll storm the gates
And break them in
I’ll take my sentence forever to hell

but Ill make sure to ask the questions of
why
we all feel sad inside
why
God doesn’t answer when we ask him for help
all the time

[Verse 7]
Tonight
Is the first day I’m looking for
Something in my life
I’ve been planning for so many years
It’s like I’m coming to fruition

[Verse 8]
I guess this is how people feel when they
Get an emotional
feel happiness inside

[Verse 9]
I bet this is how normal
People feel looking forward to
An true love,
a attachment to a house
caring for kin
something I will
Never achieve in my life

[Verse 10]
Tonight
I’ll take my life no wait
I’ll conquer this suicide
I have to say the words
Make sure I don’t back out
This time

i just hope God’s ready
To answer
My questions about
life
but if I’m damned to hell
I’ll travel through the damned
team up with Lucifer
and wage war till we all know why

[outro]
Tonight
I think I’ll take my life
Please tell the doctors
Not to resuscitate my mind