1

How can I love if I do not love myself?
How can I feel if I do not feel the love?
How can I be afraid when there is nothing to lose?
How can I be saddened when I have nothing?
I feel like the rain with no garden to feed,
I feel like the storm with no thunder to scream.
I feel like my hands are as cold as my thoughts,
I feel like I'm dead but my heart still pumps.


2

I am ruined, the destroyer of lives,
My tracks of destruction visible from the skies.
God looks down and sees my lies,
The silhouette of the devil crying out from living inside me.

I try to control, harness, calm the beast,
But he escapes and takes over me.
My eyes change, my smile turns to an evil grin,
People flock to me, under my control, under my skin.

Release my poison, my sickness into their brain,
One by one I destroy their name.
Until one day when I have an army of pain,
So many people, an armada of tortured that feel the same.

Forever they will remember these moments,
Forever it will haunt them, the demons will—my will.
Forever they will remember, forever it will haunt,
The demons will—my will.

3

Leave behind everything you own,
Forget the memories we were brought up with in our homes.
Come back to the place of dreams,
Live moments like memories—memories should be here at all times.

Forget the truth that's been told,
Let's float the streets, say fuck you to the world.
Let no one stop us, no one should care—
We just want peace, happiness spared.
Laughing, crying, anger, sighing, loving—
It whispers, overtakes, and fills.
Stop what you're doing, follow your heart,
Love all your friends, leave thoughtless nonsense behind.

Forget what you're told from people who failed before,
Let loose—you own your life,
No one has you on a noose,
No one has you on a noose.

4

Feel so trapped, feeling so useless,
Never-ending spiral crashing down.
Seems long ago—no problems in my eyes,
Now what I have is not what's love.
It's looking down, thinking low,
Help me wake up—this dream just sucks.
I'd run, walk, give up everything,
Just let me in, let my mind free.
You free, forgotten lay,
Progression is slow, I just want to run.
Where can I go to start completely over?
Where can I go to be alone?

5

Sitting in the ditch, cold and crisp,
Mind racing—please take me home.
All the way down, all the way down,
Please take me home, all the way down.
Their kid is lost, does not know where to go,
All the way down, all the way down.