Addicts Curse

Matthew P. Haubert

Adrenaline receptors firing off
body in overdrive
can’t stop
can’t stop
meaning the body needs to stop
but I can’t

adrenaline overdrive
amphetamine override
adrenaline—implied
amphetamine
amphetamine

Nobody used to work nights
nobody four-count
come down to pay period
nothing adds up
nothing lands

what do I do now
what should I do
on this calm down

been here
so many times before
still don’t know
how to handle it

the pain from the pleasure
how do I handle the shift
the turn
the drop

the amazing symptoms of drugs
don’t continue
for long periods

what do I do
every time it ends

how do you kill the pain
it causes

still searching
for that current concoction
that mixture
that might heal

the addict’s curse