Coming down, so fast, harder than i can imagine, the brightness in the day as disapeared, the fire in my heart has gone away. Coming down so fast… back from space I am returning to the earth. To the mediocre life I call mine. What should I do now.. What do I do now. Frightened rabbit to calm me down, manchester orchestra to fill in the gaps of sadness until I finally rest. Until my corpse lies in bed wondering why once again. Why i do what I do once again. Never will I under.

The Lantern in the fog

I met a monk in Avalon, he spoke without a sound
His eyes were like two cinders from a fire underground
He handed me a lantern, said, “This is not for light—
It’s for the ones who wander when the road dissolves at night.”

(Chorus)
And oh, the mountain whispers it knows my name
It hums soft and low
The stars have turned their faces away

And the moon won’t let itself shown
But there’s a flame behind the curtain
And a bell without a clapper
And I walk on toward the silence
My feet disappear in the dim light

(Verse 2)
The lantern flickered gently, though no wick or oil it burned
I asked him what it wanted, he said, “That’s for you to learn.”
I carried it through graveyards, where the marble saints had wept
Past rivers that remembered staring through the secrets i kept

(Chorus)
  And oh, the mountain whispers it knows my name
It hums it soft and low
The stars have turned their faces away
And the moon won’t let itself shown
But there’s a voice beneath the thunder
And a rope without a mast
And I walk on through the echo

Dissolving into the mist

(Bridge)
She waits beyond the border, dressed in veils of falling dust
With hands like folded wings and eyes that see through rust
She says, “The light you bear is borrowed, but the path is yours alone—
The lantern’s just a vessel for the fire in your soul.”

(Final Chorus)
And oh, the wind it knows my name
It hums it soft and low
The stars have turned their faces
But I still have miles to go
There’s a gate without a keeper
And a flame I must take

For forever it will be prisoned
‘Til the debt of light is paid

(my sould rest in peace, in the devils grave)